Sorry's and Time

              I am who I say I am.  I'm nobody I'm not.  I won't fake it to your face or behind your back, that's just not my style.  I call it like I see it and I'm not sorry for doing so.  A word to describe me would be unapologetic, and that's just what I am.  I'm not going to apologize for something I mean because that would be a lie.  I'm an unoriginal copy of everything that's wrong with this generation.  I'm not sorry for being who I am, the only thing I'm sorry for is if you're forced to be here.  With me.  In my life unwillingly.  You can debate all day saying "oh but everyone would love to be a part in your life."  But the hard cold truth is not everyone's thrilled to be here, and I'm truly sorry for you.  I have lived long enough to know what I feel and why I feel it.  I have lived long enough to sum my self up.  I have lived long to talk like I know what it is I'm talking about.  

               I'm a lot older than I look.  Well not technically.  My mind acts like it can define the universe in one word.  Like it's lived here for a thousand years.  My body aches and shuts down like I'm closing in on death.  Yet I haven't even really began to live yet.  My spirit feels the end.  Feels as though it's time is up.  As though it is ready, yet not prepared at all.  I am not saying I'm better or smarter than anyone else.  

          "Some people are old at 18 and some are young at 90...time is a concept humans created." 

-Yoko Ono

With much love and respect,

Lil Red

Top ten take two

So I decided to do another top ten, first one of the year.  Mostley because I have nothing else to write about.....I'm pretty much mind blank right now.

Top ten quotes:

1. "Sorrow leads to sadness but sadness leads to kindness and kindness leads to love." 

-Unknown 

2. "You're a ghost driving a meat coated skeleton made from stardust, what do you have to be scared of?"

-Unknown 

3. "I awoke, only to see that the rest of the world is still asleep."

-Leonardo da Vinci 

4. "Be sure to taste your words before you spit them out."

-Unknown 

5. "Ignorance is bliss but knowledge is pain."

-Unknown 

6. "My pain may be the reason for somebody's laugh.  But my laugh must never be the reason for somebody's pain."

-Charlie Chaplin

7. "Your naked body should only belong to those who fall In love with your naked soul."

-Charlie Chaplin 

8. "You're off to great places!  Today is your day!  Your mountains are waiting, so...get on your way!"

-Dr. Seuss

9. "No matter how you feel.  Get up, dress up, show up, and never give up."

-Unknown 

10. "Falling in love is a crazy thing to do, it's like a socially acceptable form of insanity."

-her 

Hope you like it

With much love,

lol Red

Real talk

So I never blog anymore like what is that why don't I blog I don't know.  It's kinda like why do I talk to myself or why can't I use good grammar?  Questions that will always go unanswerd I guess.  Okay so I was thinking about my blog the other day.  And I started to think about how fake I am with people.  I'm fake on my blog and in person.  I act like I'm this like inspirational fountain of amazingness(pretty sure that's not a word, there I go with my grammar again).  But hey guys I'm really not.  I use the word like like every other sentence.....like.  I really couldn't care less about my generation honestly because it's doomed any way.  And for every one who thinks I'm like suicidal and all that jazz news flash I'm not okay.  I'm a teenager.  A really hormonal one.  Like take the most hormonal teen you've ever met and multiply that by like 6 no 7 no 6 I like 6 we'll do 6 okay so take that teen and multiply them by 6 and that's me.  I have like 20 million thoughts in my head at once and sometimes the sad ones pop out and I'm sad and sometimes the crazy ones pop out and I'm crazy.  Don't ask me why that's just how I am okay?  So now we have all this confusion cleared up we can finally have real talk okay you cool with that?  Well if you're still reading my blog after that mess I'm guessing you are.  I am a freak okay I'm crazy and I'm loud but I'm done pretending to be this model citizen okay? Okay....I think I'm good.  That felt good.  We should do this again some time.

With all the love and care in the world,

Lil red 

Maybe

Maybe it was all for nothing.  Maybe all this working and running was for nothing.  Maybe in the end we will just be alone.  Maybe the new year is not the new beginning of anything.  Maybe it was just another day just like the last.  Maybe there is no reward at the end of all our work.  Maybe not living our lives to the fullest was for nothing.  Maybe not loving who we want to love has caused us pain that we shouldn't have had to feel.  Maybe we aren't as important as we think.

But what if....maybe we are.  What if it is all for something.  What if it really is a new year and a new slate. What if we can change everything.  What if all this running and working was for something.  Maybe this year will be your year.  Maybe you will make this world different this year.  We will never know for sure I guess.  

To New Beginnings,

Lil Red