Unwanted

Have you ever felt just unwanted?  Like you could get in a boat and sail into the ocean.  Then lie in the water and fade away.  I’ve been feeling that way a lot lately.  I hate when if you said out loud what you were thinking everyone would hate you even though they’re thinking the exact same thing.  I feel like a slow love song.  It can only get so loud before it hits its peak.  Everything is better when it’s quiet though. 

 The worst feeling though is the feeling that it’s only started and it can only go downhill from here until it pops and levels out.  But what if it never levels out….who knows

With much Love,

Lil Red