Just Checking In

So I realized that we are almost mid way through November and I have only made like three blog posts.  My bad and I apologize.  A lot has been going on in my life of recent.  I have decided that I am going insane.  I figure in a week or two I should be an in an asylum.  If not then a padded  room of my own at home.  Wouldn't that be glorious?  A room of my own.  Even if it was padded I would be okay if it was all mine.  No kids to run around in it.  Yes, that would be nice.

So on a less dramatic note I have been in a rather booky mood.  I have read eight books since the beginning of November.  So I have decided to make November National Book Month.  I'm sure there is already a book month out there, but I really don't care.  Well I just wanted to check in with you guys and let you know that I am not insane quite just yet. 

With Much Love,
Lil Red

Something Special

I think I am slowly going insane. I think the monsters in my head are finally taking over.  Little things set me off.  I am loosing sleep at night yet I could sleep on a park bench during the day.  Every things building up and nothings breaking down, but me.  People used to tell me I was something special.  I was, as they would say, a light.  I feel like a damp candle now.  I feel like a junk drawer, full of use full things but no one to use them. Colors seem to have faded away.  Everything seems dingy and  blue.  Something needs to change.  Whether it's me or the world, I don't care but it must happen.  

I'm done talking to people about my problems because it dosent seem to help anything.  People listen and act like they care but in the end they just think I'm crazy and keep moving on.  It's okay I like being by myself.  I like being all alone.  All I know how to do is run away any way.  And in the end that's what I'm gonna do......run away. 

With much love,

Lil Red 

Broken

      Have you ever been broken?  Has your spirit been broken or maybe your heart.  Maybe it was your dreams or it could have been your sanity.  Breaking is the worst part trust me, but mending isn't fun either.  But from what I've been told, it gets better.  You will always have scars, but that's not a bad thing.  Scars make you stronger.  Scars remind you not to do it again.  Scars tell people you will not be messed with in that way again.  I'd rather have scars than open wounds.  Open wounds tear you apart and never heal.  They make you weak.  They make you afraid.  Let things heal.  Let them brush off your shoulders.  Be a new stronger you.  
     
      Don't let them break you.  Don't let them win.  Take from the experience and never let it happen again.  Let yourself grow, not wither away.

With Much Love,
Lil Red
     

Top Ten

  So I decided to try something new.  I'm going to each month do a top ten post.  It will have top ten songs I'm listening to this month and top ten quotes this month.  Hope you enjoy.

Top Ten Songs:

1.Pompeii, Bastille

2.Tranquilize, Finish Ticket

3.Strong, London Grammar

4.This Gift, Glen Hansard

5.Until you came along, JJ Heller

6.Team, Lorde

7.Human, The killers

8.Sister Song, Perfume Genius

9.Turning Page, Sleeping at last

10.New York, Snow Patrol


Top Ten Quotes:

1."In life you will learn that you have two hands.  One for helping yourself and the other for helping others."
-Audrey Hepburn

2."Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
-Dr.Seuss

3."Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubt."
-Abraham Lincoln

4."Do not take life too seriously.  You will never get out of it alive."
-Elbert Hubbard

5."Elegance is when the inside is as beautiful as the outside."
-Coco Chanel

6."Falling in love is the easy part, getting someone to catch you is the hard part."
-Anonymous

7."Today you are you that is truer than true.  There is no one alive that is youer than you."
-Dr.Seuss

8."Coming to terms with who you truly are is the first step to happiness."
-Anonymous

9."I myself am totally made of flaws, stitched together with good intentions."
-Anonymous

10. "The sun will not always shine as bright as the day before."
-Lil Red

Well I hope you like and enjoy it.

With much love,
 Lil Red

Boston or bust

       So I just got back from the great city of Boston.  Apparently Massachusetts invented America, or so the locals say.  I attended a Celtics game and five workshops.  The Celtics won and I learned a lot in the workshops.  You would say this trip was a success right?  Well it was for the most part aside from me falling down the stair, getting stuck on the subway, almost flying to Charlotte by myself, having a panic attack and loosing my Ipod and wallet at the airport.  Other than that it was great but lets just say none of that was my fault (other than falling down the stairs of course).  I think if my OLD adviser was still here none of that would have happened.  Just saying that when people care more about themselves then the people they're supposed to be looking after then bad things can happen for example the list above.  But the best part is that person is trying to say its my fault.

Well I just wanted to share that with like the seven people that read my blog.  Also wanted to let you guys know I'm home safe and sound.

Hugs and Kisses,
Lil Red