Broken

      Have you ever been broken?  Has your spirit been broken or maybe your heart.  Maybe it was your dreams or it could have been your sanity.  Breaking is the worst part trust me, but mending isn't fun either.  But from what I've been told, it gets better.  You will always have scars, but that's not a bad thing.  Scars make you stronger.  Scars remind you not to do it again.  Scars tell people you will not be messed with in that way again.  I'd rather have scars than open wounds.  Open wounds tear you apart and never heal.  They make you weak.  They make you afraid.  Let things heal.  Let them brush off your shoulders.  Be a new stronger you.  
     
      Don't let them break you.  Don't let them win.  Take from the experience and never let it happen again.  Let yourself grow, not wither away.

With Much Love,
Lil Red
     

Heres to the Girls

Here's to the girls who don't care about society.  To the girls who don't wake up with perfect hair.  Who will eat a Big Mac instead of a salad.  To the girls who will wear sweat pants over skinny jeans.  To the girls who aren't popular.  To the girls with brighter minds than smiles.  To the girls that don't get all the boys.  To the girls that prefer flats over heels.  To the girls who don't need a boy to tell them they are beautiful to feel better.  To the girls who don't need to wear 50 pounds of makeup.  Who like the feel of t-shirts and hoodies.  To the girls who think beyond high school.  To the girls who aren’t girly girls.  Who aren't afraid to break a nail.  Who aren’t afraid to stand up for what’s right.  Here's to the girls just like me.

With much love,

Lil Red

Tomorrows

                  You can know some one your whole life and never really know them at all.  You can know some one your whole life and watch them change right before your eyes.  You can love some one for so long then all of a sudden feel very distant.  You can dislike some one one day then the next you love them.  Humans are meant to change and grow.  Were meant to wish.  Were meant to hope for the best but expect the worse.  We trust so easy.  We are like children always trying to catch up but never really getting there.  We are as fragile as glass the slightest tear of our hearts can send us straight of the edge.  Our minds are fickle.  We will always wonder and question, never being completely sure.  We attach our selves to each other, which can make us stronger......or tear us down.  

              Sometimes we fall for that thing called love which can also make us stronger or tear us unto pieces.  We can go on forever this way.  On a cycle to our own destruction.  It's like they say  "if we don't learn from the past, the past is bound to repeat itself."  We are all risk takers in this world.  We risk our lives just walking out the door, but we do it anyway.  Why?  Because we are humans.  We believe in good.  We believe in hope.  We believe in brighter days.  We believe in tomorrows.  We believe that no matter what happens there is always a tomorrow with no mistake in it yet.  And that my friends is in its self a beautiful thing.

With Much Love,
Lil Red

Mistakes

It's funny how close you can be to the ones you love but how far you feel.  Like an outcast in your own home, but there is no one to blame but yourself.  In life we make choices....whether they are good or bad choices is up to you.  I don't think we should be judged by anyone on this earth......no ones perfect.  

I don't like thinking about the past, it brings me down in a state of depression that only the present can bring me out of.  Mistakes take a long time to heal and to partly forget, but you will never forget them.  Maybe that's a good thing though because if we didn't remember our mistakes we would only make them again.  

Feeling a little cloudy,
Lil Red

The impossible

I think we all want what we can't have.  We all want that person who's either taken, not interested, or doesn't exist.  We're all waiting for our lives to get interesting ,but what I have realized is that waiting gets you no where.

 Sure everyone longs for that forbidden romance or that moment of a lifetime.  But dreaming about it just gets in the way of your life and what's right in front of you.  You have to get out there and do what you must to get what you want.  Life can be so hard and unfair and a lot of times I feel that it's only me.  But then I take a step back and realize I'm never alone.  No ones alone there's always some one there for you.

With much love, 

Lil red 

Falling in love

I think I fall in love too easily and too fast.  Let me explain.  I fall in love with my friends, my teachers, people i observe, people that don't know I'm alive.  Not the kind of love like, "I want to marry them" but the kind like I want them in my life.

Weird right?

In my opinion falling in love is the easy part.  Getting someone to catch you is the hard part.

I also fall in love with certain aspects of people.  Like I fall in love with their voice or their eyes or hair.  I also quite frequently fall for people's actions, their compassion, their hearts.

I fall in love so easy that I think the day I meet the actual person I want to marry it will be hard for me to fall for them.  If that makes any sense at all...

Well loves I just wanted to get that off my chest.

Hugs and kisses,

Lil Red

Missing the innocents...

Do you ever feel like life just flies right by you at times?

You turn around for one moment and you're 12 and just started middle school.  The next moment you're 15 and a freshman thinking about how your childhood is almost over.

Then you blink and your freshman year is over.

I would give anything to get back that innocents we had as children.  When you wonder about everything at once and make mistakes that your parents always fix...wow, life is so short.

I think it's a little too short for YOLO.  You know, "You Only Live Once."  I think it's only long enough for YOL.  (You Only Live).

I'm going to live with no regrets.  No running away.  No turning back.

Simply Live.

With much love,

Lil Red

        

Perfect?

Perfect…..I have often pondered that word. Why is it a word if nothing is perfect? I think that we were set up to fail. Given false expectations. Given false hope. 

Why would we use a word like “perfect” if it is not meant to be used? I say don’t change yourself to be perfect or what the media portrays as “perfect.” Be your own kind of perfect. There has only been one thing on this earth that was ever truly perfect. 

So don’t set yourself up to fail. Don’t look with envy. Don't change yourself to fit others expectations.  Be who you are.  Who you want to be.  Who you can be. 

With much love,

Lil red

Practice what you Preach

So recently there was a rumor going around that my friend (who we will call Alice) made fun of someone for cutting themselves.  So multiple girls texted “Alice” and called her just to verbally abuse her.  

So let’s think about this for a moment.  Most people cut because they're bullied.  So you’re going to do what other people do to you?  Yeah, that makes no sense.  By doing that no one is ever going to have sympathy for you. 

Also by bullying someone else you will never have true relief.  If you treat others bad then they will treat someone else bad and it can go on forever. 

Sometimes I think we all forget we're human.  We forget we have flaws.  We forget we make mistakes.  We expect perfection when we are nowhere close to perfection ourselves.

I have flaws.

I make mistakes.

I am human. 

Practice what you preach.

With much love,

Lil Red

Not so sorry

So recently i got into an argument with two of my close friends for tweeting something that was not directed towards them but was generally about them and this tweet read:

 "I hate two faced people like I guess you don't have your own opinion that's cool okay"

We are currently not friends anymore.  But that's okay you wanna know why?  Because I'm done saying sorry for stating the truth.  I'm done going with the flow and doing whats cool and not whats me.  I'm done with the petty lies and girly drama.  

I'm sorry if I say something that offended you and I will apologize for that but I will not apologize for my opinion.  I will not apologize for being me.  I am who I am and if you don't like it then please exit my life.  

Well just wanted to rant a bit today before I have to go to school tomorrow.

With much love,

Lil Red

Please and Thank You

 We go through life with basically everything handed to us. I am convinced we are the most spoiled generation ever.

So today while in school, I decided to count how many people held the door for someone or said thank you or please.

At the end of the day 7 people held open the door for some one.  6 were teachers.  

15 people had the chance to open the door for someone but didn't.  5 of those who didn't were teachers.  

13 people said thank you.  All 13 were teachers.  

23 had the chance but didn't.  7 of those who didn't were teachers.  

17 people said please today.  And a whopping 12 were teachers.  

14 had the chance and didn’t.  2 were teachers.

It boggles my mind that someone can be that concerned with themselves that they don't even bother with common everyday things that you should do and say out of respect. It kills me truly that I grow up in a generation like this.  

Well if this even in the least bit touched you I'm glad.  Maybe you can just start saying please and thank you if you didn't already. 

With much love,

Lil Red