Daring

Today I feel daring.  Like nothing can touch me.  Like I'm invincible.  The world is like nothing compared to my courage. I could run a mile or walk through hot stones or tame a lion.

    It's funny how fast things can change.  How things get fixed and how things mend.  How quickly things scab over and become scars. 

With much love,

Lil Red

Unwanted

Have you ever felt just unwanted?  Like you could get in a boat and sail into the ocean.  Then lie in the water and fade away.  I’ve been feeling that way a lot lately.  I hate when if you said out loud what you were thinking everyone would hate you even though they’re thinking the exact same thing.  I feel like a slow love song.  It can only get so loud before it hits its peak.  Everything is better when it’s quiet though. 

 The worst feeling though is the feeling that it’s only started and it can only go downhill from here until it pops and levels out.  But what if it never levels out….who knows

With much Love,

Lil Red

The impossible

I think we all want what we can't have.  We all want that person who's either taken, not interested, or doesn't exist.  We're all waiting for our lives to get interesting ,but what I have realized is that waiting gets you no where.

 Sure everyone longs for that forbidden romance or that moment of a lifetime.  But dreaming about it just gets in the way of your life and what's right in front of you.  You have to get out there and do what you must to get what you want.  Life can be so hard and unfair and a lot of times I feel that it's only me.  But then I take a step back and realize I'm never alone.  No ones alone there's always some one there for you.

With much love, 

Lil red 

Falling in love

I think I fall in love too easily and too fast.  Let me explain.  I fall in love with my friends, my teachers, people i observe, people that don't know I'm alive.  Not the kind of love like, "I want to marry them" but the kind like I want them in my life.

Weird right?

In my opinion falling in love is the easy part.  Getting someone to catch you is the hard part.

I also fall in love with certain aspects of people.  Like I fall in love with their voice or their eyes or hair.  I also quite frequently fall for people's actions, their compassion, their hearts.

I fall in love so easy that I think the day I meet the actual person I want to marry it will be hard for me to fall for them.  If that makes any sense at all...

Well loves I just wanted to get that off my chest.

Hugs and kisses,

Lil Red

Random

So I decided today would be a random day.  So here are 20 random facts about me.

1. My favorite color is red.  But when I was little I told everyone that my favorite color was red becasue it was the color of blood.  You can guess how many friends I had.

2. I have ADHD.  No surprise there.

3. My natural hair color is not red.  It's dirty blonde.

4. I have a birthmark right below the side of my knee.  It looks like an island.

5. I always get cuts that look like vampire bites (no association with any sort of vampire saga, movie or TV show.  That would be lame.) I actually have some scars from them still.

6. My favorite animal is a tortoise.  I used to tell people my favorite animal was a dinosaur.  Probably due to my lack of friends.

7. When I lived in Maryland me and my sisters were bullied by a boy with the initials D.C.  He called us butt crack face...how insulting.

8. I'm part Irish and Scottish.  I'm also part Cherokee.  I guess the paleness over throws any pigment I could possibly have had.  Thanks genetics!

9. I like having money even though I spend it in like two seconds.

10. I have never broken a bone in my life.  (knock on wood.)

11. I can't draw people to save my life.

12. My parents are divorced.

13. I totally believe in ghosts.

14. One time I tried being a vegetarian... it only lasted until my mom made bacon...which was the same day I started being a vegetarian.

15. I can be totally bubbly and out there but I get so shy around new people.  It takes me a long time to gain the courage to talk to new people.

16. I'm turning 16 on July 31st.

17. I can't sing to save my life.

18. I used to have a 2 inch imaginary friend.  Her name was Carly.

19. My lucky number is 19.

20. I hate waiting for surprises.  I even hate waiting to surprise someone else.

Well there you have it, 20 random facts about me.  Hope you enjoyed.

With much love,

Lil Red